Sunday, October 19, 2014

Am I vulnerable?

                 yes i am..many  times you tend to pretend whom you r not, before the people.The real you will be the one who prefers to shed  tears in dark.You think so when you feel no one  understands ..No matter how well  you pretend..u can never conceal your feelings to one you love..you feel its ok to b a little vulnerable to him..he gives u the freedom to b who u r..but what will you feel when he says "you r weak"..The phrase u hate to hear !!!!!!!!..Some things even if its true,you don't like to admit .
             Each person will have profound reason behind his actions . it may not be so evident.There are many sensible questions which people never ask but takes the liberty to make assumptions.I feel there are two types of people.People who think for others and  the ones who think only about themselves.The ones who think only about themselves sees everything in a closed box.

Sunday, May 11, 2014

confused!!!!!!!!

sometimes i feel we are different
sometimes u protect me like a baby
sometimes i feel i dont know u
sometimes i feel u wud leave me alone
y do i feel so...
who makes me feel so
is it my weird thots or my impartial mind....
y do i fear to be left alone
may b i do not want to fall again
y do i feel everyone has won
y do i feel i was the one who lost
y i feel so unsecure
bits of past days cringing on my back
i cannot cry so loud
i cry inside my mind
y is always injustice happening
even if i have a freedom,y do i feel i am tied to
should i keep my head down,wen i feel my voice is not heard
am i a degraded creature?
y u always give me dreams of heaven and feeling of nonne
y i feel my spirits have become vaccum
it is better not to be transparent
i shud b someone i am not
i shud wear a happy face alwayss
i am drenching in thots reaching nowhere..........
try things that make u happy;
no matter wat happens
 to b happy is never a choice
to b happy is a must

for u to see wat lies ahead
only wen ur mind is clear u can think
so u need to b happy even if u r not

Thursday, August 7, 2014


i wont deactivate my account coz i dnt want u to feel guilty..I  will manage my habit by loggin in unnecessarily seein other ppl happiness; simply rewinding and see wat i saw evrytym,simply wastin my tym for nouse ..
 i am happy tat u r a person who never forgets the ppl who hav helpd u gain happiness in ur lyf
 i used to be lke this  b4..to dedicate smethin for my frnds.but it wont cme in my thots..i dnt know y now..what is blocking me ... i was always rushing myself to make u happy and ultimately failin in all attempt..somehow i gained confidence and i thot i woud stop worryin..then one day i heard from u whethr i am afraid of u...i felt i am failin again...u dont understand watz goin in my mind...coz i dnt want anyone to tell me do smethin...
u didn do anythin wrng
 its tat sme fight is goin wth me and my mind..am in a hurry to prove smething to u
 so today i stoppd it
 i don't have to prove u tat i can make u always happy..may b tats not love
 i am not a slave who married making a promise to make u always happy
 i am jus a normal human being with anger,love,sympathy and is better i try to b lke this
and yearn frm u only wat i deserve
 i may appear simple,foolish but my mind is complicated than any1 else ..noone else but myself is responsible for it
. i like to do things myself..i feel satisfied in doing things lke tat..i dnt want to b a burden to anyone..till the end of my life i want to be independent..
 i never want my hands to be tied up..  upto this moment i dnt knw wat has made me write all these
 its jus to let u know tat my mind is struggling ...
 I know u do have problem..but i guess problems do have priority..u can choose urself
 i dnt even hav the least clue if u read this..coz am not goin to ask u..but i will save these words..as it really came out frm my mind..

Friday, July 25, 2014

What is really so important?...The feeling of being so closed up..Life wrapped with so much stress and craving to yell d.Each time a need to compromise just to keep yourself calm when you know things are not in the right way.You are forced to follow a way where your conscious mind tells you not.Whom should I follow..the situations or the mind? If I follow the voice,I am all alone.The essence of so locked up in thoughts where I cannot differentiate what is love..I live in a world where I always have a fear to be left alone..

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

wanted to write a long b4 "MY LIFE IS SCREWED" I HATE IT..HE LIVES IN A FANTASY..DOESNT EVEN KNOW WHAT I WANT FROM LIFE EXPECTS ME TO EXPLAIN WAT I WANT..I NEVER DO IT..I DNT WANT A BEGGIN LIFE..WEN HE FINDS FAULT I DNT EVEN WANT TO XPLAIN,I AM SO FRUSTRATED..HE NEVER UNDERSTANDS..ITS COZ OF HIM...AALL COZ OF HIS CONTRADICTIONS IN WORDS...I KNEW UR LIMITATIONS..I NEVER DEMAND A BIG HOUSE... HE DONT LOVE ME JUS BRAGS ABT LOVE AND HURTS ME MORE..I HATE HIM..I HATE HIM WEN HE MAKES ME FEEL WORTHLESS TO LIVE...I DNT HAVE HAPPINESS..I NEED TO RECREATE